On the 26th of February 2016 I received a phone call from my sister that would change me irreversibly. She called to tell me that our beautiful, funny, intelligent nineteen-year-old niece had taken her own life.
Laura was an amazing person. She wasn’t just my sister’s child, she was my best friend and I loved her more than words could ever say. At first I was angry, I admit. I was bitter that she left me. How could she do it, did she not love me as much as I loved her and I’d never take myself away from her? But I wasn’t suffering with depression. I wasn’t so low that I couldn’t see any light at the end. I wasn’t in Laura’s shoes.
Laura is gone ten weeks now and people say time heals but it isn’t getting any easier to be without her. I think about her all the time. I talk to her in my head and I cry – a lot.
Laura didn’t mean to break her mother’s heart. She didn’t mean to devastate her family. She didn’t mean to hurt us so bad that missing her is a physical pain.
Laura never meant to hurt anyone. Not even herself. She just wanted her pain to stop. Laura succeeded in ending her pain when she took her own life, but what she didn’t know was that pain lives on without her. It’s etched into the hearts of everyone who loved her because life without her is pain for us. Every. Single. Day.
Suicide is never the answer. NEVER.
The morning of May 7th 2016, ten weeks and one day without Laura, was the DARKNESS INTO LIGHT WALK in aid of Pieta House. Pieta House is an Irish charity dedicated to helping prevent suicide. The 5 km walk starts at 4.15am in darkness and finishes as dawn breaks. The idea being it gets a little brighter with every step you take. I would give anything to take Laura’s hand and walk together again until it’s bright, but I can’t. But it’s not too late for others. There can still be light…
Over 120,000 people took part in the walk in various locations around Ireland with other countries joining this year too to host walks, growing DARKNESS INTO LIGHT into a global event.
If you are familiar with my writing you will know that respect and understanding of #mentalhealth is very close to my heart.
In aid of Pieta House and DARKNESS INTO LIGHT and in memory of my amazing niece I would like to donate 100% of No Kiss Goodbye’s sales this weekend to this fantastic charity. If you would rather not buy the book but you’d still like to donate to this amazing cause then please check out their website below for details.
Please. Everyone deserves a chance to walk in the light.